hello there...
It seems everywhere I turn these days, is darkness and fear. Why? Why are we so fearful? I know that we're human and we fail our Lord every day, but last night, as I tried to lay down for the night I felt myself bottled up with fear and anxiety. Scared of what this "virus" can do, and who it might take next.
It feels as though everyday we hear of someone who died, or has gone to the hospital and it doesn't look good. I feel myself curling up and wanting it all to stop. The fear, the tears, the hurting. It just needs to stop.
I was crying to myself, trying to figure out how to go on, and then I started praying. Praying that the Lord could help us all to be healthy and strong and the more I prayed the more I felt peace and clearness returning to my soul.
It seems we all have let the world's darkness and fear creep into our lives until it stanches away our joy and Light, leaving us a crumbling shell. But we have a Savior who never leaves us or forsakes us. We're human, we fail all the time, but He lifts us back up again. He has the power over all things. He is stronger than this thing that is causing so many to fear.
I found a verse that warmed my heart and helped to calm my anxiety...
"Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength" Nehemiah 8:10 KJV
In this verse it talks about the JOY of the Lord being our strength. Only in Him can we find our strength. And He gives it to us to take on each and every day. So why are we so fearful? When we have a Savior who holds the burden and weight. Why should we let the world come and snatch our joyous light away? Because all that leaves is misery and darkness. But in Christ we can find strength for tomorrow, today, each moment, and His joy will shine through our souls.
And, something I've just felt placed. It's okay to be happy. It's okay to smile. Don't let the devil come in and snatch your joy away. We don't need to feel guilty for being happy. Christ wants us to be happy. And our joy comes from Him
It feels so often I find myself trying to stay strong, and look as though nothing bothers me; I'm fine. But you know, I shouldn't be that way. I'm not always fine. Christ asks us to come to Him and to leave our burden at His feet. So why is it that it seems no one is trusting and leaving Him their troubles? Myself included. He has the power to take the burden from your chest and to hold you up, in everything. So let Him.
I had\still can have, a very hard time with losing my little cousin Abi... it came as such a shock to me. Yes, she was ill and we all didn't think she would survive past five. But she kept going. (almost fifteen years) She was a fighter. And I just felt, she wasn't going to go so fast without any warning. I guess there was some warning; she had been sick. But she had been sick before and they even took her in to see if it was covid and it wasn't. So in the back of my mind I thought she'd be fine. And she is. She's resting in the arms of Jesus where it seems so many have gone lately.
And yes, I still have my moments of crying and feeling so broken inside. Feeling as though I don't have a right to feel the way I do because I was just a cousin. But I do have the right. She was my cousin, my little Abi, and I loved her. Her death left a hole in my heart and it'll take awhile to heal. But I know that in time, God help my heart to heal again. But the grieving is forever. I never knew what my mom meant when she would say, "Grieving is forever. You never stop." until now. It is forever. We will grieve the loss of loved ones each and everyday. Someday, we'll come to a place where we might not get a tremendous wave of sadness when we think of them, but then again, maybe we won't. But we don't need to worry. They are forever healed and waiting for that glorious day when we can all join them with singing and thanksgiving. And oh what a glorious day that will be!
That's another thing. Thanksgiving. It feels as though we're all forgetting what Thanksgiving is really all about. Take a look around you, even in all the troubles, there is so so much to be thankful for. Like my mom always says, "There is always, always something to be thankful for." and oh how true it is! Look around you; you have a house, clothes upon your back, food before you, family, love... Christ. I know, especially for me, that I have felt myself just curling up in in fear and not taking the time to truly see all there is to be thankful for. I was forgetting what Thanksgiving was about. Forgetting that Christ can carry the burden. But I haven't forgotten anymore. He is good and I have so so much to be thankful for. And oh how wonderful He is!
I'm not exactly sure where all this came from. I suddenly felt the urge to write a post and so I did. We all need to be reminded sometimes (me too) that the fear does no good. God has the power over all things and in that, we can leave our fears and doubting's. He takes care of it all.
So dear readers, let's take the time to look around thank God for all He has done for us; to see all the blessings we have. And let's let Him take our burden. He loves you and He wants you to be happy. <3
I hope this post helped you to feel comfort if you were needing it. Because you are loved. God bless each and everyone of you. <3
