I'm Fifteen || Me Through The Years

 I turned 15 today!! It was a wonderful day. Let me tell you a little about it. *smiles* First thing that happened was yesterday, sweet, big brother, Chancy got home from work and said since he wasn't going to be home tomorrow, he'd give me my present then. And then he held up a thing of dairy free ice cream, and *wide eyes* I was so shocked, 'How To Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World' I squealed and jumped up from the couch and gave him a big ol' hug. He's just the best. I love him. <3 I am SO thankful for a big brother like Chancy. <3333333333333
Then, today my sisters took me out for a sister date. It was a wonderful time, and I'm so thankful to have siblings like the ones I've got. *huge grin* We ate at Burgerville, went to Walmart, the local book store, and The Dollar Store. I got LOTS of food at BV, and some other things from Walmart and The Dollar Store. *smiles* Like I said, it was a wonderful day. <3 Thank you all for making my day great!!
Well, enough chit chat. I thought it would be fun to do a post of me through the years. So you all can see how much I've changed, or if I even changed at all! *laughs* Enjoy!

Three Months 

One Year

 Two Years

 Three Years

 Four Years

 Five Years

 Six Years

 Seven Years

 Eight Years

 Nine Years

 Ten Years

 Eleven Years

 Twelve Years

 Thirteen Years

Fourteen Years

Fifteen Years!!
 (me and Daminika)

And then just a whole bunch of pictures from today because

we haven't taken my birthday pictures yet. XP

(me and Felicity)

 (me and LaKaysha)

 All my wonderful sisters!! <3

Me and all my food! *laughs* Believe me, I was full!

Well, I hope you enjoyed reading about my special day, and looking at me through the years. *smiles* I had a blast!

She's Six Months!

Can you all believe it?! My sister is already six months along! *gasps* Her belly is getting larger, and the baby is flipping, kicking, and punching a lot more. *heart eyes* I'm getting super excited to meet the little one, and finally know if it's a he or she. *laughs* We've seen Baby's little face in an ultrasound, and they are cuter than ever! Baby has a cute little button nose, and looks like an angel. <333333  

Felicity - six months

We've all been guessing and I thought it would be fun if you guys guessed. *grins* So, what do you think she's having? A boy? Or a girl?

 Baby E. <3

50 Things That Make Me Happy

Brooklyne over at Showers Of Blessings, did a post like this and it sounded like fun. *grins*
Anyone can feel free to do a post like this, it was actually a tag in the beginning I hear tell, but I'm not going to tag anyone. *laughs* So let's begin!

1. New cousins
2. My church
3. Family
4. My new niece or nephew on the way! 
5. Cousins
6. Babies
7. Animals
8. My pen pal
9. Receiving random gifts in the mail
10. Writing
11. Painting
12. Drawing
13. Crafts
14. Lottie
15. Grandpa
16. Dairy free ice cream
17. Coffee
18. Summer!
19. Winter!
20. Autumn!
21. Spring! 
22. Special days with, Daddy
23. Special days with, Mother Dear
24. My sister's
25. My brother-in-law
26. My big brother, "Brother Bear"
27. Cousin snuggles
28. Puppy kisses
29. Horses
30. Riding, if I ever get the chance
31. The fair
32. The rodeo!! *huge grin*
33. Family events 
34. Singing karaoke!! 
35. Campouts 
36. Moments spent with my puppy <33
37. The smell of a new book 
38. Little book stores
39. A favorite book series
40. Roast, mashed potatoes, and gravy!
41. Pasty!
42. Hugs
43. Gifts
44. Making someone else happy
45. Watching an all time favorite TV show
46. Homegrown pickles
47. Roy Rogers <3 
48. Dressing up
49. Birthdays
50. And last, but not least, Jesus Christ <33 <33 <33

There you go! *laughs* 50 things that make me happy. I hope you enjoyed reading this! *grins* 

What makes you happy? Want to do a post like this? Feel free to! What have you been up to? Talk to me in the comments below!! 

Getting Ready For School

It's that time of the year again! School time! *grins*
We've been getting ready for school, buying notebooks, pencils, etc. And It's kind of exciting, right? Don't you get excited when you begin a new school year? I know I do. *laughs* I'm getting excited to be doing school again and stuff, but I am not excited to be doing it alone.
I'm one of those people who hates being alone, so this has been really hard for me. I'm going to be alone, doing school, the last one of my family to get confirmed, and the last one to get a drivers licence. I won't be getting my licence 'till next year, but I'm kind of a worry wort, and I think ahead a lot. *sheepish grin* I know I should just take one day at a time, but I don't. I think ahead, what will I do? Will I pass the drivers test? What if I fail? What if I make my parents spend more money because I fail the test? You know, things like that. But I've got to just step back and let God take control. It's hard, but I've been trying.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about this coming school year. It's just been super hard, trying to grow up, let my brother go, and accept things. I just don't want to give Chancy up. I want him to always be with me. We've done almost everything together my whole life, birthday parties, school, growing up, everything, and now. Now he's moving on ahead of me, leaving me behind, and it's hard.

Well, I guess that's all I have to say about that. *laughs*

How have you been lately? Still doing school? What are your favorite subjects?! (my favorite is, math)

Top Ten Movie Cowboys + a small history lesson

So as you all know I'm a cowboy lover. *grins* I'm sure you all could guess what my top ten movie cowboys are, but I thought I'd do a post about it anyways. *laughs* I did one when I first started my blog, so quite awhile ago, but my top ten has changed since then. *cheesy grin*
Let's begin then, with the tenth one and work our way to my number one cowboy. *laughs*

10. Ronald Reagan. 
I can't actually remember if I've watched a western that he was in, but I sure know I like him. *laughs*

9. Gabby Hayes. 

He was Roy Rogers sidekick, and an adorably sweet old man. You've just gotta love him. <3

8. Rex Allen. 

I remember watching a couple of his movies and really enjoying them. He's got such a nice voice too. He sings lovely. 

7. Gary Cooper. 

I just love this man. <3

6. Fess Parker. 

Now, this man I grew up watching. We all loved him, and I just love the way he sings. <3

5. Pete Nolan. 

I watched pretty much all of the Rawhide TV show and was devastated when Pete left the show. I nearly cried. #truestory 

Also, his real name is Sheb Wooley and he was a singer of some sort I believe. He's got a really good voice too. *laughs*  

4. Rowdy Yates. 

Now. I'm pretty sure everyone knows Clint Eastwood. *laughs* I just love his character in Rawhide. *giggles* He even sings in some of the episodes!! *dies*

3. Mr. Favor. 

*giggles* I'm sure you all heard about how much I like Mr. Favor. *laughs* 

2. Johnny Yuma.

I just recently watched all of The Rebel and really enjoyed them. Like, a lot. *laughs*

Anyone surprised to see he's number two? *laughs* 

1. Roy Rogers. 

This man has been my hero every since I could remember. I'm pretty sure I popped out loving him. *laughs* He was the King Of The Cowboys along with his good ol' horse Trigger, The Smartest Horse In The Movies, and his beloved wife Dale, the Queen Of The West! 

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So there you have it. My top ten cowboys. I'm sure you all could guess Roy was going to be number one. *grins* I think I talk\talked about him a lot. 

I've just been recently reading a few of the Rogers' family's books. I read Cowboy Princess written by, Cheryl Rogers (Roy's daughter) and now I am reading Roy and Dale's book called Happy Trails and it's such a sweet, sad, and cute story. I'd say it's a must read. 

Dale also wrote a book about their Down Syndrome daughter Robin. It's called Angel Unaware and I really want to read it. After she wrote it it the world started accepting Down Syndrome children. Before she wrote her book, the world hid their children with Down Syndrome, and let no one see them. They were all ashamed of them. But after Dale wrote Angel Unaware she changed the world. They (as in Roy and Dale) seen a whole platform of children with Down Syndrome at rodeos they preformed in, right after her book was published. 

Dale says it's not her story, but she was just simply the tool to use to get it on paper. God and Robin did the rest. 

*laughs* I guess I felt like giving you all a small history lesson today! 

Well anyways, I hope you enjoyed this post. *grins* 

"Happy trails to you, until we meet again...." 

Struggles || My Grandpa Had a Stroke

Like the title says, my Grandpa had a stroke. It happened sometime ago, and I never really talked about it on my blog. But, I felt like doing this post just because I guess.

The doctors said it was a super bad stroke and he was doing great considering the stroke. So, I took this as he was doing pretty good I guess. I think deep down inside I really knew it was pretty bad. My grandparents (on my dad's side) live 3,000 miles away from us, so I never really get to see them.
It wasn't until a few days ago, that it really hit me. My mom told us that he didn't remember being a truck driver anymore. (he had trucked for Walmart for like 20 years) I was just like, "oh yeah, that's sad." But the look on my dad's face when he told us about it almost killed me. He looked so sad. Before all this my Grandpa had been suffering from depression, and that really hurt too. But now this is different.
Then, the other night I woke up sobbing in bed from a dream. It was so real, I hated it. I was with my mom and we went to my grandparents house to visit them. I went into my grandpa's room to say hi, since he hadn't seen me in a long time, and expected to have him grinning and ready to give me a hug. Well, I was sure surprised. He turned away from me and told me to go away, that he didn't know me and to leave. I was heartbroken. I remember I fell to my knees on the floor and sobbed. The emptiness I felt in my heart was terrible. I woke up with tears streaming down my face, with a horrible empty feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was shaking and wanted to just curl up and bawl some more.
It made me afraid. What if it really did happen? What if I went to him and tried to hug him and he didn't know me? What then? I wouldn't be able to stand it.
It's been super hard and I would appreciate all your prayers. Especially for my dad. I can tell it hurts him too even though he doesn't let on. The sadness I see in his eyes when he talks about Grandpa is horrible. Through my whole life my dad would, lots of times, talk to my grandparents on the phone when he got home from work, and I would grin and tell him to tell them hi. But now, when he says he talked to Grandpa his eyes turn kinda foggy, and fill with sadness. I don't know if anyone else sees it, but I do. I notice it ever time. It breaks my heart.
I keep praying for a miracle, but nothing seems to be happening. It's hard, and I'm hoping and praying things get better. Life's been a little crazy for awhile.

Yeah... *slight smile* Sorry for dumping this all on you guys, but I really felt I should share. <3